Standing up to the punches

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Journalling....

So i emailed my wife back the day before saying that if she pursues the bonus issue then she would be forcing me to retain a lawyer and that all issues would be back on the table.

So i get an email yesterday about some house issue. No response to the bonus issue. I reply and again bring up asking her what her response is on the bonus.

She emails evening and again clarifies the house related question. But completely ignores the bonus question.

I think very rarely have i ever stood up for myself like this and opposed her directly. It feels extremely weird and I feel very bad like i am hurting her. I mean i know that right now my wife is trying to fleece me, but still i have this incredible guilty feeling like i am abandoning her. I have to learn to recognize where i am digging a grave for myself first.

I think i'll consult a lawyer on monday as to what transpired till now and see what she suggests. Guess i'll end up retaining a lawyer....I hate this...