this is a service for her. I am not even in the country. it is something I offered to her on March 9th and here was her response:
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Thanks for the caring thoughts and offer to help! Of course D14 is against anything that has to do with you but I'm sure it still means something to her that you are thinking of her and trying to help her out! How was your (counseling) session?? Are you going to sign the (divorce)papers? I'm at work but you can email or try to call later if you'd like or call in am when I'm on my way home.
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neither one of us said anything more about it at the time.
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
I'm speechless. You've nailed it for me. I am still trying to control everything especially in my thoughts.
And I even did write a book on knowing what to do in every possible scenario - ironically it is called "Set Yourself Free."
I can't tell you how much I appreciate your comment. And especially your saying "please" at the end.
It demonstrates a depth of character and compassion in your response that I feel I am often giving lip service to in my communications, but not really demonstrating at the levels I am capable of.
That is not to say I am judging myself as being wrong or bad. It is only acknowledging there is still a lack of integrity showing up in my words and actions. A lack of congruence that makes things unworkable in my life.
Yet I know I'm on the path. I take an enjoyable amount of time tuning in and connecting with God / Nature every morning, I meditate and balance my chakras daily, and I am now being in the moment, now being fully present, and now being more aware of the possibilities - without all the attachments I used to have to "being right".
What I am working on is putting down the playbook. Being fully in the game. Being a stand for myself and others. Lightening up, relaxing and having fun.
Again, I can't tell you how much I appreciate your comments because it seems there is another door you have opened up for me here. "Get centered so I can actually settle on my goals and actions for awhile." Yes. That is a big part of what I am up to now.
Being true to me no matter what anybody else believes.
Letting go of thoughts and feelings that do not serve me. Especially all my fears and desires to not only control the outcomes, but also my thoughts and feelings! Like a snake going round and round and round swallowing it's own tail!
But now I feel there is a centering, a balance, an "at home-ness", a sense of grace available to me that I have not fully embraced before. Now, in harmony with God/Love/Nature/Creation everything is clear and anything is possible.
In harmony with God. That is, in harmony with the Generating, Organizing, Delivering and Destroying principles of the universe.
There are some rules that can be broken. There are some rules that can be bent. And there are some things - MOST THINGS! that I simply can't do anything about.
With all that being 95% of God's will, and with all my 5% of free will, I know I have the option of either resisting or accepting.
What I resist persists. What I accept I can eliminate. And continue moving on.
As a conscious co-creator, I know I have the option of being happy no matter what! There is always a choice! So how do I get this elephant mind out of my living room and really lighten up and let things go however they are gonna go? How do I lighten up, be free and laugh far more easily and often?
How do I know when to hold up, know when to fold up, know when to walk away, and know when to run?
(Somewhere in the darkness. The Gambler he broke even.)
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
