Another New Day 2

[islander]

Thanks for the 2x4. Doesn't bother me at all. I need to hear these things. Don't know why I don't listen to them more. Yearly I do I am afraid.

I feel that my W will just forget about me.

She will assume I don't care about her.

That I will just be making it easier for her if I "just go away"

I think I was doing pretty good until last month when she came home Nd said she wanted to reconcile. I haven't recovered from that yet, and that is the truth. It is not as raw right now, but it is just under the surface.

She is trying to blame me for the bad relationship she has with her parents. For the way her dad treats her and her mom. Truth be told, her dad and I really don't even talk about her anymore. We just fish and I go to church with them. BUT, I need them to help me when I have my D too. That is why they moved next door to us, and I don't have any other support down here to help me with my D. So I say all that bc my R with her parents is not going to just stop bc my W wants it to. And she knows this, bc the last time she said something about it, she said she didn't want me to stop seeing them, or something to that effect.

I don't know how I am supposed to respond to her when she contacts me. I go back and forth, should I ignore her, or respond to her in a friendly manner, but only respond to her and not contact her?

A silly question, but I am going to ask it, and it may show you how lost I really am: she wants to play words with friends with me on our iPhones. Should I play a game like that with her during this time. I really need to know an answer to this. I feel like she is reaching out to me in some form, and that it maybe some form of a baby baby baby step???

I have read DR, but not for a little while. I started to get worried when 3 or 4 other people here seemed to go down at the same time, and I thought that I was going to be next. Stupid, but that is how I felt.