Don't want to jinx anything. Things are still going well. I don't like feeling like I have my thumb on the thermostat and he doesn't. As long as I'm happy and not triggering everything seems great.
Had a little trip the beginning of the week and had a lot of fun. Decided to ask a question I had burning in my brain. Asked in a very calm/even tone way. H still got a bit nudgy/defensive. We made it thorough. In MC yesterday he stated that the guilt and shame it brings up for him is hard for him to handle. I'm thinking he is maybe more human for feeling guilt. He doesn't show much emotion (unlike me)and so it's hard for me to read him sometimes. BTW, most people like my expressiveness and energy. H seems to misread it as...I don't know what.
I'm still feeling the need to put more of the piece of the puzzle together. However, the place I'm in now I didn't think I would ever get here. I'm still scared, still paranoid at times. This bothers me. Had the idea to go to his office and check email....I won't.
gotta go..son calling
M 55 H 58 M 24 T 29 S 22,21, 19 Bomb 4/10 It (A) really isn't about you 11/2013 We all have work to do
The truth will set you free, but it will almost kill you first.
