Standing for my live-in MLC'er/WAS

[angel61]

By the way Grace, still could not find you on the alt.

I was reading your post to tad and cannot help but think of how serene you are. Your screen name suts you to a T - you are so full of grace in your everyday life, and in how you are able to go beyond your pain.

I just am not there yet - far from it. I walk around alternating anger and resentment, with pain and hurt and hopelessness, with times of numbness, and times where I do feel positive and happy and look forward to the future.

I hate it when anger and resentment takes hold, those are the most dangerous times.

But sometimes, especially at times like this when my D's wellbeing is at stake, I feel justified.

Then I feel like taking control. If it were just myself, I would be fine, but with D involved, it is a different story. My maternal, protective instinct rises full force, I am the mama tiger ready to kill anyone and anything that threatens my offspring.