TG,

What is driving me is that she seems open to the idea of going to church with me. She also said she wanted to go to my Ds play with me and was going to try to get off of work to do that. I am not pressuring her to do anything.

Going to church together would be a big step forward for us. I think that is my goal right now, and I hink it could happen in the next month. But I cannot pressure her, or I think she will resist. I will ask and accept wo question whatever answer I get.

She told me three weeks ago she thought about goin with us to a church concert, but did not want to bc her dad would be there. When and if we go to church together, it will just be me and her.

I think that by not communication with her like I was was hurting more than helping my sitch, but I am analyzing everything, and guessing too, to be honest.

I was thinking today that by being absent, I may actually be making it easier for her and OM. maybe if she starts doing things with me or talking to me more, it might hav a negative impact on their R. I am the OM right now I guess. I don't even know how Much contact she has with OM, and I am not going to ask.


BITS

M:34 W:28
SD:9
D:6 (pr)
M:3 T:6
Separated 1/16/11
ILYBNILWY 10/25/10
PA discovered 11/12/10, began about 10/1/10

I am not who I was, I am being remade, I am new...