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[OnMyWay]

Just had a texting volley with WAW. After our discussion (noted above) where we discussed liquidating our possessions, she found a buyer for some of our furniture. I reminded her that the discussion was just a brainstorming session and that she continues to take everything I say as gospel. I had though I was clear that I wasn't making any decisions yet and I'm not ready to sell furniture. She didn't get that part and still wants to keep some of the furniture anyway.

She kept asking if I was ok and if everything was going well for me.

I asked how her counseling session was. She covered it in some detail and admitted she is unbalanced in her thought process and requires professional help. I'm very happy she's decided to seek help, although I do believe it will be the end of our M. She also informed the counselor doesn't think she's depressed, but is suffering from extreme anxiety. I've never brought up depression - I suspect that is being fed from one of her friends who's been pushing her to get on anti-depressants.

She asked again how I was, if I was having any problems. I used the opportunity to tell her that I was doing well, but that I missed her, am unhappy about all this stuff, and feel we will make a mistake if we follow through with divorce, but I also let her know I've been making good progress on myself, am over the sadness, getting a handle on my emotions, and am still struggling with trying to rediscover myself.

To dodge the "us" issue, she told me about getting a great score on her exam at school. I reminded her how proud I am of her. She told me how proud she is of me being a good father to our daughter. Unfortunately, that opened up a whole other discussion, which made both of us sad and we both needed to change the topic.

This gets weirder and weirder by the day. I just don't know what to think about any of this. Perhaps it's time to go dark again. On the other hand, my gut is telling me it is time to step this up a notch and start spending some more quality time with her. It almost feels like she is reach out for it. Of course, I could be setting myself up, too. I do expect her to pull back from whatever progress we make.