hAS BEEN HOME THE LAST 2 DAYS AT NIGHT,PROBABLY GUILT.Went S11 concert with W tonight. I really said next to nothing while keeping my distance.She kept backhanding me on the arm every time she wanted to say something mundane.Has neen a small bit chattier lately but still texting OM on the phone with a smirk on her face.
What do I do now go even more grey or dark?really hard to keep up a pleasant demeanor when all I want to do is take her in my arms and hold her. I will not move out (dont have the money and she has not initiated any R talks so I feal like Im in limbo now.So tired everyday a marathon. Im mostly stoic.
