The Lies and Deception Killing Me

[abbey1989]

Blew off school. Bad I know. Every time I even drive on the campus I get this really awful feeling in the pit of my stomach. Sometimes I have this fantasy about confronting OW (we've never met). My more rational mind always wins.

It is not that my H treats me poorly when he is around me...He has actually been very nice. It is what he does when he's not around that is so troublesome. Or at least what I perceive he is doing.

Just feel like I'm plodding along with nothing really to look forward to. I feel like I'm in constant defense mode.

Sad and weepy and bummed that my mind keeps going back to all of the little details and the lies. Having a hard time today.

Back to work.....