Another New Day 2

[islander]

I guess I just need to detatch a lot more. I am so emotional these days, it is not helping me. I don't know if I should try to be more friendly with her or not. I know in the end, there will b no friendship bw us if we get a D. But is that helping or hurting my cause right now. How will I know. How will she know what it will b like without me if I am her "friend" now?

She said the other day when I suggested if we worked on our M that she would be less stressed "maybe but how can u force me if I am not wanting to or willing to right now?". I told her that I wasn't forcing her to do anything.

I can read into that statement that maybe someday she would be willing to go to C with me. But maybe I am reading into it to much. I am so lost right now.