It's Time To Rock; Part II

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Back to a question I had a while back, how do you know what is working?

Well, with our D sick this weekend I ignored all of my W’s texts. I admitted before there were some ill intensions here, but I also just really needed some space after our talk on Thursday. I knew I screwed up and wanted some space from it all.

Well, I asked today how W and D was feeling (W is now sick too).

She replies:

“We r gonna b fine. In the future, can you remember that it’s nice to hear back when u r wondering how D is doing – especially when she is sick?” She then added some “instructions” for me for my time with D the next two nights.

Looks like I developed an anger phase now. Tough to look at this as a positive. Seems like I was better off in the “friend zone.”

Well, I replied back:

“I understand W. I needed some time this weekend and put all my efforts into D. Realize that I did not chose this and would prefer to be there for D every day. I do understand how hard it must be for you as well”

Then…

“You could have texted back, especially after she went to sleep. Don’t pretend that you didn’t have time cause u were taking care of her. I was worried and deserved an answer. A quick text to tell me whether my D is ok or not is something I will expect from now on. I get that u need time and space to heal, and u have permission to act however u want towards me, but not when it is about D”

Me: “W, I understand that you are angry. Again, my actions were not intended to hurt you. I needed to focus on D and myself this weekend. It was important for me.”

Last one:

"Again, it takes 30 seconds, I expect updates when D is sick,
regardless of what you need to do for yourself"

I think I will just end it there. Some of the irony in there. What she “deserves” and “expects.” Putting our D ahead of ourselves? Does she not see how funny this is?

This is a new one for me. We have not had this type of hostility towards each other. Again, how do you know what works? I can’t see this as “working.” It feels like a big step back for me. Until this we had always been friendly towards each other.

I need to rethink what I am doing here. What I want and what it will take to get there. Obviously I have taken a wrong turn somewhere. Need to find the correct path again…