Albuquerque living part 3:Strapped in for the ride

[Albuquerque]

Short update,

H hasn't gone back to his place to stay since our "breakthrough" of sorts. Over the weekend, he brought a huge pile of laundry here. Once it was dried, he asked if it was OK if he started hanging his stuff in the closet. I admit the question made me a bit weepy. I told him so (as well as yes) but then joked that I was crying about the loss of closet space

It's clear that H has had a few "issues" as he calls it while at the house. Minor anxiety attacks. But they have either been much milder than before, or else he's hiding it well. I've still told him that if he needs to take a breather, to do so. He has not. He works at home and has been working here at the house and then sleeping in our bed at night. He still has insomnia issues but he's had those as long as we've been married. One of the things that's starting to concern ME slightly is that I kind of fear I may be starting to have a few anxiety issues myself. A few times in bed I just have gotten very uncomfortable, my breathing has quickened, and I've needed to get up and get a drink or something. It passes OK but it is weirding me out. Hopefully it will be short-lived.

This week H will be gone most of the week. He has to attend a conference in a town about 90 minutes away. So I won't see him until Saturday at the earliest. I'd already planned to go camping with D over the weekend, so it might not actually be until Sunday that we see him again. He's stated that he will bring over his desk and chair after the conference so that he can work a little more comfortably at the house. Right now, he's been working at the dining room table.

Things seem to be going well, but I'm still well aware that he's still broken. He still has issues he needs to resolve. But it seems he's overcome his fears of moving back at least. I can't help but start to wonder at what point some more significant things will take place. Will we ever wear our rings again? Will he list me as his wife again on FB? Will he ever say ILY? As positive as the signs are, I'm well aware that things could still change. We've discussed him getting some counseling but I don't think he's moved forward on that. But he's stated recently that he really feels a lot better about things. He's said that in the past, he's felt like all his unhappiness emminated from being genuinely unhappy at home. And for now, at least, that's gone and is making everything else better. I hope, for his sake, he continues to work on himself.