Standing up to the punches

[Redo]

Journalling.....

Its so funny that wife tells me she is leaving because we have a kid and our home was not a good place to raise our daughter because we were arguing. Seems quite reverse logic thinking.

also that she wanted nothing from me. And now everyday we are having discussions on child support payments, assets etc. Seems like wife is quite prepared to rip me out.

At some point on the child support payments wife made an unreasonable request on sunday to which i initially agreed. My friends at work put me straight telling me to be careful about the money issues here. I then emailed her telling me that i would agree to her request.

Everytime wife asks me anything, i feel so guilty that she's suffering that i make big concessions for her. My family just cannot understand why i love her so much when they think she's been manipulating me for this long.

I cannot explain it. I mean honestly i am quite willing to just give away everything to her even though my logical mind tells me that she might not even love me back for any of my sacrifices. I just cannot explain why my heart longs so much for her. I think the most ironical part is that my wife said that in the past 3 years she did not feel much love and affection from me. I've always had it, but my ways of expressing it were different. It breaks my heart to know that my beloved does not even want anything to do with me anymore....