at what point do you get to not caring anymore? I still feel like I can salvage something...but I do feel it's over. It just all seems like a nightmare that I can't wake from. Like if I had only done something different in the past...been a better partner...listened more...done things different.

That's eating me alive right now. Not so much for my relationship but for my family.

My oldest is taking this extremely hard. She's been calling me saying she wants to live with me and that she doesn't relate to "these people" meaning her mom and grandma...I'm at a total loss.

I'm seriously thinking of taking them back to CA with me and filing there. I'm trying to think what's best for them and am very unsure...

m 40
w 38
married 15
together 18
d11, d8
bomb 12/19/10
2nd bomb 3/30/11
COMPLETELY DONE