Weird new day for me today. I intellectually know I have no wife any more. That my marriage is for all intensive purposes over. I thought I was doing better to disconnect, but when faced with the reminder and reality of it all, it still smacks in the face like a wet herring covered in spikes.
I deleted the saved voice mail messages from her, removed all pictures of her on my phone, and deleted every pic of her from my FB photos.
I'm thinking of moving into the room downstairs, and our of our bedroom.
I am VERY angry today.
I still am at the point that all of the division of assets, child sharing, and all that is not bothering me. It is the reminder that she is leaving in part to be able to pursue someone else. Not just anyone, but someone in specific. That she has a passion out there, that she is just yearning in her soul to join someone else. That is the hard part. So even though I typed it here, I try not to think about it, it's the only way I can wake up in the morning.
