Had a rough morning. Took care of my little boy last night until the W picked him up for daycare this early morning. After I packed him in his car seat, I was kissing him goodbye when the thought that I was not going to see him again for a few days hit me. I came back into the house and the emotional wave brought me to tears.

Being away from my S is difficult enough after just a few days apart. I could not imagine those that have spouses that take the children away to different states. That is incomprehensible to me and feel so sorry for those that are in that sitch.

It is also interesting how my attention and sadness is turning from missing my W to missing my S. I guess that is what happens when you work so hard at emotional detachment to your spouse and dedicate yourself to being the best father possible.

Me - 33 W - 33
S - 9 months
M - 3 years
T - 5.5 years
Bomb - 12/14/10 ILYBNILWY
PA discovered - 1/18/11
PA began - 3/22/10
Separated