Standing up to the punches

[Redo]

Journalling....

Its been a long time since i felt like this. I think i am having a meltdown at work. Talked to some friends and one of them is divorced. Just hearing about his experiences creates this fear about the whole thing. Its a nightmare. He talks about how the love is so dead that they have absolute no feelings other than logistics about the kids. And how it is so frustrating for him to move on even after 3 years of him being divorced. It is like staring into the face of hell and i am dead scared about my life after the divorce. It also just struck me. I'll be paying for child support that i cannot claim for taxes. Wife will also clain daughter for dependent tax purpose. But with all that i cannot watch my daughter grow up and be there for her all the way. Where's the justice here??????. It is not fair when you pay for everything and still you are estranged from your kids, even when the D was not your idea. You don't need hell after you die. This is hell i tell you.

sorry, i have vent. I am just losing it at work. Help!!!