So, I just went to see her. She wasn't in her office so I sat on the couch. I heard her say "Hey there" in her sweet country accent. I looked at her and smiled and followed her to her office. She gave it to me and we talked for a minute. Then I looked at her and said, I am going back to the office now. Have a great day. She said the same. As I was walking to my car, I text her to say that I forgot to say thank you.
She responded when I got back to my office. She "no problem, U looked stressed. R U ok?" I responded that I am not stressed at all and that I am feeling really good and that it might be the workout's I'm doing. I alos said she looked really good. She said "Thank U. Maybe u are uncomfortable around me. I don't want to hurt u". I responded with "Not at all. I really enjoyed your visit on Saturday too. I don't know why I might have looked stressed". No response from her yet.
First off, I hate it that I looked like that. I was nervous about seeing her and thought I looked good when I saw her. I smiled and was cheerfull. But this IS my W. She know me. I just hate the text part of "I don't want to hurt you". That just makes me feel like I am still on the first step. I know that I am, it just shucks.
This is a marathon, not a sprint. She is going to continue to see the new me in all emails, texts, or face to face. I will go back to my semi dark place where I only respond to her. I have realized that when I do respond, I need to make sure I am not short and that she can see I am happy. Now, I need to put this out of my head and go on with my day.
