Journaling: Thursday I received a txt from W that the telephone and internet account she setup when we moved into the house 19 yrs ago would be canceled by 5:00 PM. I did not reply as I did not see a need to do so. I had previously spoken with the provider that my account would begin when W canceled hers. She was two days late canceling, and because of some miscommunication I spent most of this weekend without internet connectivity.

Saturday I worked outside the house cleaning up winter debris and pruning back a few tree limbs. There is a lot of work to be accomplished. I took the dog for a long walk in the park. He met an American Samoan and two Chows.

I posted some pictures and status updates on FB when the connection was finally restored. FB seems so superficial. Most of my friends are from W’s family and I’d much rather pick up the phone and have a conversation. I know some people stay camped on FB waiting. I have a life here in the real and it is a lot more interesting!

Sunday I woke with an epiphany, I need to really forgive W for her part in this drama and all of the past. I know this sounds lame particularly to the vets here. It is something I have known intellectually, but never believed enough to commit to. The magnitude of accomplishing this is daunting. It is easy to say but it will take time to accomplish.

I know lot more happened this weekend than I have information to journal here. W was to attend a baby shower in one of my cousins families. I am waiting on communication from my L about when this F2F meeting is supposed to take place.

I downloaded SWOE and have begun to read it. Some of it applies to me and I could see where I was becoming more and more of a “Nice Guy”. Interestingly I think my FIL is a “NG”. W has considered her F a victim of her M and their marriage. She advised him to D several years ago.

BITS
Me 55, ACK, when did that happen? Doesn't feel like 55
D 30
S 27

You create your own universe as you go along - Winston Churchill