12 days and no word from the WAW, yet I am feeling solid. No fear. Even she now has my signature on the divorce papers and she can file them any moment.
I'm still missing her like crazy, and still wavering more often than I would like between the possibility of being with another woman someday, and the possibility of never being with anyone else again unless it is my "Beckie".
Kinda weird but I'm really liking the idea of never being with anyone else, and just loving this one woman truly well for the rest of my life, giving myself over to loving her completely without ever expecting anything in return...
I know it's a pretty high ideal...
And yet the possibility persists and continues to feel good...
Best of all I am absolutely in the moment. Right now I have no decisions pressuring me, no actions I feel compelled to take.
Just fully enjoying my days, and waiting to see her next move.
Life is beautiful!!!
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
