New and saying hello

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Journaling now-

This morning I was extremely sad when I woke up.
The tears wouldn't stop falling. I just wish my H & I could find our way back to one another.
I know he doesn't want a D-at least right now but I don't feel like we are close to reconciling either.
I know I need to be patient, and I am trying my best to be, but this really [censored].
If he could just tell me that he wants me, he wants our marriage but he just isn't ready to come home yet, it would mean more than anything in the world.

I find comfort in his words. He tells me he loves me, he misses me, but then why won't he come home?

I'm just sad. I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this.