he called from an airport halfway home today he had planned to stay with us tonight
my s was having a great day, with my family around, so i told him that he need not stay here (nicely) that we could tell our s that he was not going to come in til tomorrow i told him that it was crazy at my parents and that im sure the last thing he wanted after a travel day was tons of people around
he agreed, but was not sure
i told him it was just an option
the truth is that i didn't want to see him
i am becoming more and more detached
when i didn't hear from him after his flight got in i assumed he wasn't coming here
he did tho and my s was very happy
he gave me an hug and sat with me in the living room while i folded clothes
my heart didn't stop tho and as he sleeps with our s in his room, i don't have the urge to go talk to him
i don't have the desire to sleep next to him
i am just glad that our child is at peace tonight and will get a good nights sleep
