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[faithisbelieving]

Hey all. Again, X is being more pleasant in texts. Honestly, tho', I believe it happens when she needs something.

This tax season should be the last of the IRS bashing. Since changing jobs and selling the house,the financial hemorrhage is slowing and I am in payoff mode now. The gorilla is sorta gone for the time being. Reminds me of a Carribbean T-shirt: "The beatings will stop when morale improves."

To CTH: A slo-cooker is a great way to make a meal. Emeril has some great recipes. You could throw a shoe in there and with a little salt and pepper, it would melt in your mouth the next day. Hey...why not take a chef's course? I love to cook. In fact, just bought a small gas grill that will fit my balcony. We all BBQ'd for the 1st time today.

Went out on a date the other night in NYC. The conversation went well. After a drink or two, my 'meet and greeter' leaned over to start kissing at the bar (which was crowded). Uh...I'm not a PDA type person. I got some great compliments which was uplifting but, I knew that was the end of THAT one.

My two radio appearances went very well. I had a lot of fun. S10 started baseball practice and looks like he will be the starting pitcher. He was ranked 17/20 in the draft (yes, LL'ers have drafts). I"m so proud of him. He transforms when he steps on the mound. D7 and I picked out our usual pile of arts and crafts projects to do: planting flowers and vegetables from seeds; making designer bars of soaps; shapes from pipe cleaners. My daughter and I have a great relationship. I hope it doesn't change.

Finally, I can't rule out the fact that my kids probably say things that they think I want to hear, but, I constantly hear:
-mom doesn't spend time with us like this
-mom just puts us to bed and doesn't read us stories like you do
-I wish I could live with you.

SIGH.

I think, that, even at the ripe old age of 52, I still struggle with the horrible subsconcious little boy thing: "do they love her more than me?" You know, the jealousy thing. But...it's so much easier to just take that thought, wrap it up, and put it away. I just think to the hugs and the I loves yous I get and it fades away. I learned a lot here on this site, even if I regret having let myself get strung out here.

Everyone should try and save their marriage. NO ONE should hang on to a dead one. JMO.

To Frank and EverHopeful..thanks for continued to support. "an invincible summer."

Now,back to our regularly scheduled show:
to CTH-I have a a$$kicking linguine with white clam sauce recipe and great Paul Prudhomme meat loaf recipe and a turkey burger recipe that even a turkey burger hater would love.

FIB