New and saying hello

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I am almost finished with it and I just started reading it today.
I know what my LL is, and I am pretty sure I know what my H's is also. I just hope I get the chance to discuss it with him someday.

Today has been the first day in 7 weeks that I haven't been scared about the future.
I think that is a pretty significant step for me.
I still had my moment when I break down and cry, but compared to how I was when he left 7 weeks ago I am so much stronger.
And I have learned a lot more about myself, and I'm excited to continue learning.

I used to think that it was impossible for people to change. Well, I surprise myself sometimes.
I can tell I am changing. I feel different. I look at life differently.
I appreciate things more. I appreciate the people that I do have in my life more, and I don't feel guilty about detaching from the ones who bring me down.

Even the difference from the beginning of this thread to now, it's different.

I don't know what the future holds for me, but I do know that with all the people who do love me, I will never be alone.
I may have done some pretty sh!tty things in my past when I was in a darker place, but I am moving past it.
There is a light at the end of the tunnel. It is very, very dim right now, but I can see enough of it to know that it's there.