They are not just putting themselves in front of their children. They have chosen OM over their child. It really hit me on Friday when we talked. She is not the person I married. That is hard to see, but it also starts making it easier. It's the first time it became so clear to me. It makes it easier to detach. The fact is I left realizing that the person she is now, is not a person I want to be married to.

This was a tough weekend for me. D was very sick. Hard to think that she has chosen OM rather than be here for her D when she is sick. But, I was here. It kept me occupied and focused.

I have ignored every message she sent this weekend. I understand that it does hurt her not to be here. But that is what she has chosen. I'm not here to make that easier on her.

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Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.