Keeping the Faith

[Sanderika]

Hello Punkin, thank you with (((hugs))),

H has an inability right now to claim any blame. I can remember wondering before we went to the counseling IF H would attempt to sabotage the meeting with blame towards me. If he could play the roll of martyr he would be told professionally that the marriage should end. Instead H was actually blamed for having an OW and the meeting more seemed to focus on H's current choice and actions than on me. I know H appeared egotistical, cocky and selfish, this Dr. knew exactly who H was even if H thought he was filling the Dr. with "the real truth". This man has 40 years of experience dealing with troubled people and couples...I think he can read people pretty well by now.

It is truly amazing the journey H has traveled without really ever moving forward or backward. I have seen and heard H profess his faults, yet in this meeting I was the Betrayer. In this meeting H was the victim.

To this day in all my 32 years with my H I have never stepped out on him. If getting depressed was the worst thing I dished out....think about it.....whew!!!

Punkin, Thanks so much!

Sooo.....

My H just picked up son for the day. It seems kind of late giving the project at hand, BUT Oh Well!!!

H called first and seemed all like "HI!, How are you today?" I just said "fine". I told him son would be ready in 10 minutes.

H came right into the kitchen, I was finishing up cooking off a batch of blueberry pancakes, there was a plateful sitting front and center.....they looked mighty inviting, if I must say so myself!!! Son and I heard H's stomach growl, son said "you sound hungry" H said "no, I ate earlier". I had no intentions of offering him breakfast, this is a huge 180 for me. I did intend for H to see what he is going to walk away from!!!!!!!!

Another interesting thing to note: H was obviously wicked nervous. He rambled incessantly and spoke a mile a minute about some trees at the garage. Never once looked away from a piece of furniture across the room. He did make real nice of our dog, which was good for the dog. Then he and son left.

Thanks everyone!!!

Sanderika