when you have moved on

[forward]

It's been four years since the bomb, and about six since now-X began acting strangely and becoming impossible to deal with.

My signature kind of sums it up. The odd thing was, I had breakfast w/X yesterday. More like he wouldn't leave when he dropped off D yesterday. So I offered him some breakfast. He actually said thank you. There was a time when I would have seen that as progress. I don't any more.

I am polite to him. I feel sorry for him. I still have moments of anger at him.

But...the pain has drained away. I have not forgotten about him, but I don't have the deep pain that I used to. He is someone I used to know.

With these things added, I don't want to be around X any more. I see that he is perpetually negative and I think possibly narcissistic. I see that I did most of the "work" in the R.

I am realizing that I am lucky to have New Guy. He is kind and giving and much more mature than X. And I think he is lucky to have me.