Anxiety attacks are certainly something I know a lot about. My H has had them for a year now. IMHO, you are allowing yourself to get too sucked into his drama. Be honest with yourself. You thrive on being there for him. On being needed. And he knows this. And is using it to his advantage. It's keeping you around even though he's not changing anything yet in regards to OW. I'm not saying you need to abandon him or NOT be there for him. But as you know, he has to get through this on his own. You cannot help him through. You cannot be his crutch. Talk of suicide and ending it all is patented MLC. I heard it from my H numerous times. Don't get sucked in again. You are restarting a very familiar pattern. You move on, he freaks out, he gives you lots of loving talk and indicates how much he needs you, this "completes" you and you thrive on the attention and purpose, you show love and attention back, he gets better and moves on with life with OW. Stop the cycle. "Being the lighthouse" does not mean running out of the lighthouse and jumping in the turbulent waters with him.
Love ya
"Love me when I least deserve it, for that is when I need it the most"
M18 Me39,H42 D16 Bomb 1/10 Moved out 3/10 OW 6/10 H wants to R,OW gone 11/10 H moves back 5/11 H wants to wear rings again 9/11
