Not a good day today. Lost it this morning & cried & told her I love her. She held me & cried too. Said she would give counselling a go. Doesn't think it can be fixed but will see. Wants us not to gave what we had before all this but stronger, better, bigger & longer relationship.

Still lots of dichotomy there.

Had a nice day at home together, both got work done in same room, tidied kitchen together and I'm just back from night at comedy with a friend. She is staying over with one of her mates. She offered and did my hair before I went which was lovely.

I miss her like crazy. I hate separate beds, rooms and the loss of touch and text and calls.

I don't think the usual "dark" philosophies work here, no idea how to go Feds except wait for counselling and stay pleasant.

Answers on a postcard please...........

Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.