(((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))))). I am sending prayers for you today. I am VERY sorry that you are having such a difficult day.
I need more time to digest what you've written but something jumped out at me in your post and I wanted to point it out.
Originally Posted By: Sanderika
He felt he is cheating on OW by being with me. Said OW is like his wife and I am his mistress.
In the context of what H said in court (that he did not think your M is irretrievably broken), your H's comment above makes me think he knows that if he D's you, you will be out of his life for good and he has not been willing to take that chance thus far.
Originally Posted By: Sanderika
H went further by telling Dr. R that I, in my depressed state, BETRAYED him as a wife, mother of his child and his business partner.........Dr. Ron was especially troubled by his use of the word...BETRAYED. He told H that that was a very harsh and hurtful word to use. H said it was true.
It is unbelievable that your H is not able to take responsibility for any of his role in all of this. I'm glad that Dr. Ron called him on it. It sounds very much like H is projecting his feelings about his mother's betrayal onto you. H has been an adult during his M with you and as such was certainly capable of telling you this at the time that he was entertaining these thoughts. It's my turn to be really angry with your H now!!!!!!!!!!!
I understand what you mean about grieving that you feel you do not "know" this man. I really wonder what it would take for someone who is as resistant to self-examination as your H is to gain insight about the role he played in all of this????
It's interesting that your H told you how beautiful you are in the session. If he could only see how beautiful you are inside as well..............
