Keeping the Faith

[Sanderika]

Oh (((((Beatrice))))),

Thank You.

I am searching for more strength than I have ever known. I am not as tough as one might think.

I have my own therapist outside of Dr. R and I will be making an appointment with her come Monday. I need to gain some prospective as to how to move forward as a single lady in mid- life with a 14 year old son. One who can never rely on another for support or compassion. I feel quite the fool today.

I want to find that "peace" you speak of....I have listened to you tell others it will come and have only thought that it seemed impossible to achieve. I need to work on me. I need to learn a new lesson.

I am spending my weekend reading "Eat, Pray, Love". I bought this book last week in advance thinking I might need an alone activity.

It will be interesting if, when and what H will say when he has had enough "thinking on it" time. I thank you for your wishes that he chooses me and commitment.

H just brought son home and came inside to remind me that he was going to come after him tomorrow too. He then made it a point to tell me that he had to go cause he was meeting a male friend at a local drinking club. I guess no OW this weekend at all....interesting, huh? I wished him a good time and away he went. All about himself and irresponsibility. I have a nice supper in the oven for son and I, when son gets out of the shower we will have a nice, quiet Saturday evening.

Sanderika