I intend to live forever - so far, so good

[ClingingToHope]

Another step in the road to acceptance. Had day off today -- last week of spring break for girls -- and when girls got here in the morning D8 pulled me aside and said -- "mom made me swear not to tell you but she said she's never coming back to you."

I told her it was OK.

She said she was sad and doesn't want us to get divorced. She's worried she won't see me anymore.

I said she'll see me exactly as much as she sees me now. The way things have been for the last two years won't change.

I went downstairs to do some laundry and ... it was kind of a mix of hurt and anger to hear that again BUT it also was EXACTLY what I needed to hear.

She keeps dragging her feet on the divorce and that makes me wonder -- especially when others tell me stories of divorces that stopped at the last second.

But enough is enough. I have my house. I have my second jobs lined. I have a financial plan in place. I have a social network. I have a health plan.

I have everything I need except finality.

Each day -- with occasional setbacks -- I feel less nostalgia for the troubled M. I really wonder and can't wait to feel like what it will be like to be with someone who is actually interested in me.