Recovering after a same sex affair - Part 4

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Thanks, AJ. Going to do everything I can to push that agenda. I brought that up as well on Tuesday. I told her that the coordinator might have a few ideas for us and may have a different way to do 50/50 that we didn't consider. My W asked me why I wouldn't do what is best for our S if full physical custody is indeed best. Geez. Sucker punch. I just need to stick to my boundary here and let the coordinator and W know my feelings.

Nothing really new in the last few days. Had dinner and a few beers with some friends last night. Good times. Detaching from my W is becoming much easier. I don't think of her as often and rarely do not contact her unless it concerns our S. She has also been much friendlier this week than last when we have interacted.

Taking care of my still stick boy tonight. I hope he is finally getting better, but he has been super congested. Doing everything I can to help, but it still difficult for him to sleep. This has made evenings tough on all of us. Poor little guy. I have him all day tomorrow as well. If he is feeling better, I am thinking of taking him out to do something fun. Children's museum? Park? Bookstore? I don't know. We'll see how he looks and feels.

I still have a little anxiety concerning my W's plans while I have my S. I don't believe she has been out to self discover and do all of things she mentioned in couples therapy weeks ago. Lesbian coming out groups, going out with gay friends, gay bars, etc. She has been under the weather, and both of us have had to catch up on sleep the nights we don't have S. I actually asked her if she had plans tonight when she dropped off S. I know I need to let this go, but it is still a tough pill to swallow. I have been psyching myself up saying that I wish she would do these things, so that she can get on with her self discovery and figure out who she is sooner than later. Also been wondering lately if she is in contact with OW. Oh well. Not my concern.

I just need to keep on keeping on.