Standing up to the punches

[Redo]

Journalling...

So I've been trying to figure out a way to keep our home rather than selling it. So we finally worked out the details. I just needed to find out few details on the loan. Meanwhile daughter has started her kindergarten. I cannot believe that the day has come and gone like that. I planned so much for the day when we would put our lil angel in kindergarten. I would take the day off, take lots of photos and videos and after she finished the day, we would take her out to chuck-e-cheese and celebrate!... And now this...

All the time when i saw, hear or come across people facing big life issues (death, disease etc), I prayed and hoped that i would not be on that boat. Now that i am, sometimes it still feels like a lucid dream. That, from which i'll wake up one day.

Just the hard thing i've been having from 2 days is my purpose now. Somehow i always needed a purpose. Before it was my family, my daughter, her future etc. These were my purposes. Now i don't know what to do with my day. Why am i doing what i am doing. For what?? Everywhere i go, i feel like a failure. One who has failed in life, failed in keeping his family together. It hurts a lot in my community because indians rarely get divorced.