Well, I should have took that advice. Instead I drove her medicine over to her. I have to admit though, this was a pure reaction to my D. At that point I was thinking of nothing else other than how I could help my daughter.

Bad, bad, bad.

After we got my D to sleep, she brought up the house again. All I can say is I did NOT DB. I was just not in it. I was in father helping daughter mode. I did not go in prepared. Anyways, the only positive I can say is I did stay calm. One of my biggest issues was anger, and boy was I angry. But I did not raise my voice though out the convo. I cannot remember even a lot of what was said, but I said WAY too much. I went into reasoning mode. Terrible, terrible, terrible..

The fact is she is in love with this guy. She didn't use those words, but that much is obvious. She has fully talked herself into everything she is doing. And I new that, so why did I ask?

One thing I was able to communicate in no uncertain terms is that I would not be assisting with the D in any way. Her response "so I am going to have to server you?".

So that is my future right now. Waiting for the papers to show up. All I can say is I f'd up bad tonight guys. Beat the hell out of me. I just lost everything I had learned in that moment. After leaving though I had a hard time caring. I really don't think what I do will make a difference right now. But I just probably put her back into high gear.

Screw it. Right now I'm feeling like just getting it over with.

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Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.