The year of not my problem

[AJM]

Am I moving on? Yes. Very much so. Very slowly. Still.

I'm well past the point of ever taking her back; past that a long time ago really. It's just not possible and I'm slowly coming to terms with the reality I see and had hoped not to. I see that my concerns are valid I haven't been wrong to date, sadly. I do see that she will continue to try to hurt me for years to come most likely. If I let her, she will do damage. I see that to be true.
I only post parts when I journal. It helps to discuss some of these things for me. To be able to journal them, is cathartic in some ways. Part of me also hopes journaling here will later help somebody else dealing with similar emotions and issues.
I also come here to get some advice. That has been helpful. When I look for advice, I look to many sources and this is one of them.

What makes you ask? Still see some pain in my posts? Incredulity? I suspect so. I expect that to continue for a while as well. See, the further I get from this, the more things "click" into place. Things said a long time ago now make sense. Seeds were planted, and now I get it.
While I am moving on, I also know that you can't just break and walk away clean. Unless you're a WAS I guess (that was humor; I don't think anyone can just suddenly walk without being nutz). It really does take time to disentangle. I'm done. No mistake. But I still have things to deal with and so I journal about them.

Did you see something different in my posts? Or was there another reason you were asking?

AJ