I'm Moving On

[wanda15]

Well its been awhile since I have written on here. Things have been so crazy I don't know where to start.

I think today was the day h and I realized that this is over. it has been a very sad day. I feel just awful right now. H told me that he is seeing someone else. He told me this about 2 weeks ago. But for the last 2 weeks we have been spending a lot of time together and even having sex.

I have been sorta ok with it even knowing about OW. H has been having some major guilt about it. So last night he decided that he wants to be with OW and things with us must end. we talked a little bit but he is just done.

So OW lives 4 hours away from here and he has gone down there today to spend the week end with her. I actually felt bad for her today because she is thinking that she is starting a new wonderful relationship. Of course it is all started on lies. She thinks H and I have been split up for quite awhile. We of course have not been. I think its only been 45 days now. So H is still not honest and is just looking for the new love rush and is going to take another heart down with him.

I am sad, angry and totally drained today. I do not like this feeling.

During the last couple of weeks H has been quite honest with me about his multiple A. I have cried on my own about them. I thanked him for finally being honest with me. I did feel a bit of a weight lifted off of me after he told me. I guess i always knew he was not faithful but could never prove it. Always felt like I was going crazy. And he would pick fights with me and try to make me feel like the bad wife. Most of the time it worked and i was always second guessing myself.


So now, how the heck do i recover from this and feel better? Its just a sad sad day!!!