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SC, once again you are right. My parents were not loving parents. No kisses, hugs, I love you, etc.
I grew up always being insecure and having a wall around my heart to protect myself.

I am currently in IC to deal with those issues and sometimes I feel I am taking a step forward and then other days it's like 3 steps back.
I am going to copy your quote and keep it with me.

I'm having a bad night. H didn't text me at all today and of course this gave me anxiety thinking oh great, he doesn't love me anymore and then started to cry.
Then I got mad at myself for allowing my happiness and self worth be wrapped up in him and not me, that when he finally did text I was so mad I haven't answered and I won't.
I need to detach. I tell myself this each and every day...and then I don't.