The year of not my problem

[AJM]

Update:
Still waiting. For Sale sign came down this morning.

I realized after talking yesterday to the pastor (again, I realized. I've known this) that this isn't about me. This is about the "image" of me she has designed in her head. It helps to explain why in the past I felt like she was painting pictures and couldn't make them fit with me in the picture. Why she had to leave; so that I wouldn't be there to mess up her pictures (partly).
Madness? Perhaps. But that's her journey at this point. I have other issues to worry about such as the health of my children and protecting them from her as much as I can while also raising them.
The nuttiness shall continue until....it stops. No telling why it is happening, but I can face the reality (now) and see that what I'm hearing from several sources is true. It won't stop for a very long time if at all. She is hell bent on being the victim and making me to be the monster that she really is.

Never would have thought prior to all of this, but it is what it is. Funny thing is, I know she loves the kids. I can feel that. But I can't tell if she loves herself more. I suspect so and for that I can see that helping the kids is completely up to me where possible.

Peace,
AJ