H and I have had a breakthrough of sorts. Incredible emotional closeness these past few days. I've been working hard on myself and the changes I nxxd ...wish to make. This, in turn, has brought H along in his actions and support towards me...then I move jumbo steps ahead. It's been hard to change my behaviors....XXX I am doing it and it is paying off.
I am working on dropping the words "need" and "but" from my vocabulary when talking with H. Also watching my tone/intonations/volume/level/rate when we talk. Watching my facial expressions. "I can hear you better when you don't look so mad."
Interesting that we are both having dreams about our home getting damaged. H dreamed (dreamt or dreamed?) the dogs tore up all the carpets and rugs and there were fibers/tuffs everywhere and "WE" had to clean it up. I had a dream about all this debris being dumped on our yard...concrete blocks from an old highway project. Messes inside and out. However, the theme of the dreams are that "WE" work together to clean it all up.
H hand-wrote me a restitution letter (to her) which he gave to me to have. I can keep it or I can mail it to her. I'm siting on it.
M 55 H 58 M 24 T 29 S 22,21, 19 Bomb 4/10 It (A) really isn't about you 11/2013 We all have work to do
The truth will set you free, but it will almost kill you first.
