I haven't posted for a while because I've been busy digging a hole to fall into. My outbursts have continued, which has pushed my wife to the point of leaving. We're still living together, but we're not close, the way we used to be.
After reading some of the other posts, I'm starting to realize the pain I've caused and how difficult it is for people to realize that their partner isn't showing them the respect and love they deserve; that person is me. I'm the one who had the affair when my wife was pregnant and I'm the one who’s spent the last four years yelling, threatening and dishing out abuse.
I'm not having an affair, nor do I want to be involved at any level with anyone else. My wife doesn't trust me because of the way I act, and because of what I say. I understand why she feels this way.
