I intend to live forever - so far, so good

[ClingingToHope]

The Divorce Rebuilding class started up again. Another seven Tuesdays. It's the fourth time I've gone through it. I don't listen as much to the actual message. I'm there more for the hour-long small group discussion after.

You get mixed messages some time. Last night, I stayed after to talk to a guy at the table. He said by listening to me I'm not "done" with STBXW and thinks I shouldn't be pushing the divorce if I don't really want it.

One of the group leaders agreed.

They are both guys though.

The lady in the leadership group said "it takes two" to fix things and STBXW hasn't shown any willingness she wants to work on it.

She's also shown no real interest in actually finishing the divorce.

They had me bouncing back and forth.

I woke up this morning feeling a little bit more clear-headed. I have to get the divorce done. While that "door" remains open every interaction between us goes right to that 1 percent that won't let go.

And, of course, the finances. The longer I wait the longer it takes for me to clean up my finances. That means the longer I have to wait to start saving money for college and family vacations.