New and saying hello

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You are right, it isn't a healthy behavior at all.
I never even considered it to be a 180 I could do.
Duh!

I am doing ok today. This morning I had my daily talk with God which resulted in tears, but it feels good to talk to Him.
I'm glad nobody can hear me talk because I am sure I look like a mad woman talking to myself. It comforts me. I really hope He is listening.

H texts me goodnight and sweet dreams, and he also texts me "I miss you" on a regular basis.
I am terrified of getting my hopes up.
I don't know how I should handle myself. Do I text back right away? Ignore him?
I feel helpless........