Take The Long Way Home...

[Queen_of_Swords]

I have been where you are. (((FOBD))).
All I can tell you is I have reached a point where I am pulling back. Where I no longer care enough to initiate talk or contact.

I have grown, my S. has not. Will he catch up? Only by his choice. Am I concerned with it anymore? Not so much. I loved him like I loved no one else. I still choose to love him and feel compassion for the lost and hurt child inside the man he truly is.

I'm letting go.
I can't fix H. I can't advise or help him either.
I can't change the past or circumstances now. I can only choose to be happy, choose to make my own way in this world, and choose to shrink that part of my mind and heart that was devoted to H and his well being.

I have a feeling you will reach this point too.
I'll be praying that you get some peace this night and future nights as well.