Well, I will keep this short as I don't have the stomach right now to discuss this much further.

My W came over tonight to get a few things from the house. She came over, we watched TV together for 45 minutes and laughed a bit. Then, she let me have it...

Tonight my W informed me that she no longer sees any reason for us to continue and that she has decided to file for divorce. I tried to argue but was meant with anger and venom. I would give a detailed account, but I just don't feel like it. All you need to know is this, six months of giving her space, playing nice and showing her support apparently did nothing to fix inside her head the reasons why she left months ago. She has made up her mind and it does not seem to bother her that her path will be littered with dead chunks of her marriage and husband.

I am a shattered human being right now. Maybe tomorrow night I will post some details, but not now. I have to go to work tomorrow and face my clients. I need some sleep. I guess I will also have to contact my A.

In every bad situation, there are always winners and losers. You go into every situation either hoping or believing you will not be a casualty. But, when you are lying on the floor and the reality starts to set in that you are not going to get up, life goes pretty dark and any visions of success seem to fade away.

Dear god, what has happened to my life? Who knows, but I will get up in the morning, go to work and be the best person I can be tomorrow. She can tear my heart out, she can bury our marriage in a shallow grave deep in the woods, but she CANNOT KILL ME! She CANNOT crush my spirit to live, breathe and take care of myself. I have my health, I have my family and I have my soul. I guess that will have to support me for now.

Wife, if it is a divorce you need, than it is a divorce you shall have. In life a person can do many things, but you CANNOT make someone love you who does not. No matter what, I still and always will love you. I hope you find what you are looking for.


FOBD

Me: 39
W: 36
T: 15 yrs
M: 9 yrs
S: 09/10

So you can get on with your search, baby
And I can get on with mine
And maybe someday we will find,
That it wasn't really wasted time...