Another New Day 2

[islander]

So, I am not doing to well today. For the past couple of weeks, and I don't know how often, my W has been complaining either to me or her parents that she doesn't feel well or is sick (seems to be mostly in the mornings). Today, she called her mom and said that she was very sick, and needed her to take her D to school. About 4 hours later, I noticed on runkeeper that she ran 8 miles, and commented how good the weather was. My heart sank, and I think I started to cry. I say I think bc my emotions were all over the place. I don't know if I am jumping to conclusions, but I think my W could be pregnant. It is either that or stress, but I don't know of many things that can make you so sick in the morning that you can't function, and then run a marathon a few hours later.

I talked to FIL tonight as we were getting our equipment ready to go fishing tomorrow morning. I told him what I was thinking, and he said it crossed his mind. I told him if she was, that it had to be intentional, bc she is on birth control. He said that is exactly what my MIL said when he said something to her this morning.

WTF. I could be jumping to conclusions, over analyzing, there could be other reasons, but I know what seems to fit best. I hope I am wrong, I pray I am wrong.

If this is the case, I am done...done with everything. That is something that I can not handle, I can not be a part of. I am going to prepare myself for the worst, and start believing that this may become a reality. I know no matter how much I prepare for this, it will be the most devastating thing to ever occur in my life.