Standing for my live-in MLC'er/WAS

[angel61]

H comes back today - and even if I do wonder if he was with OW during the two days I was back here, I don't really care. More of curiousity on my part. He did call last night to let me know he was dining with a male friend, and made it a point to converse with him during our conversation so I could hear his voice, then he decided to take an earlier flight home today. We talked for 15 mins while he was waiting for his flight - about work and the convention, but at least it was a healthy back and forth, which we really haven't done much of lately.

I know my being in a happy place, letting him be, is doing this all. My feeling is he is starting to feel comfortable with me. I should be very, very careful I think, as I feel we are coming into a delicate balance, where any misstep could send him running, could make bring back the tension. It does feel weird though, having this friendly atmosphere but not connecting deeper. Although I am content at present, I have a yearning for more meaningful convos. After we have been speaking for a few minutes, I am afraid to run out of friendly stuff and having an awkward, silent moment that I usually leave. Fits well into DB method....but perhaps this kind of interaction paves the way for deeper ones.

Well, since I am also in a stressful period at work, I will strive for equilibrium for thenext month or so at least. After that, we have a promising spring break vacaton trip planned with the family.... and that is something I am looking forward to! 10 days of loving grandparets, parents, cousins, unclues, aunts (H's side) ... trips to the beach, farm, parties ... oh heaven!