Pickle, thanks for the advice. Most of the time I am in that peaceful place. I am relying a lot on my faith with God that somehow whatever happens, at the end of the day I'll be alright. But in the meantime, I get knocked down with every new step, every new revelation.
I really have been strong in front of him. I don't cry at all, I make no R references. I just keep things short, I go out with my friends, I spend time with my kids, I keep living. But I feel like I am dying behind the scenes sometimes. NOTHING has worked. He is so shut down; I look at him and have no clue who he is or where my husband went.
