I've been trying to continue my lenten activity.
So I made stations of the cross again Friday.

It really is uncanny how one can identify with Christ's passion sometimes. I know my struggles are not physical, but on an emotional level, the feelings of betryal, of having to drink an "undesrved" cup, praying "My god why have you allowed this"; they all resonate, in vivid clarity.

Again I visited the adoration chapel yesterday. I was actually feeling a little tight about W returning from her trip. And I felt God confirming what I have felt about coming off the coaster; I'm rising again.

I also sensed that W is still on a downward slope and far from the light at the end of her tunnel. Things are going to get harder for her; she's been emotionally torn, but it's going to get worse before it gets better. I'm beginning let go of the resentment and to feel some compassion, 'cause she's a mess. I think even the kids sense it.

Me 53 XW 50
M 18 Years +2
S14 D19
Bomb 10-24-10
Served 1-27-11
Mediate 4-21-11
Civil D Final 6-2-11
No church anullment
"A man is not finished when he is defeated, he is finished when he quits."