Positively moving forward

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S's tubes are completely out of his ear drum, but still in the canal. I am using mineral oil for a week then peroxide for a week to hopefully loosen the wax and then they will fall out or the ENT will pull them out.

With H, he had OW start hanging out with S so that means they are definitely more than friends. He told S they are just friends, but I know better. It is hard right now because I keep having memories of two years ago (it will be two years exactly of him leaving on Apr 1), but throughout this month and next month there are memories of what lead to him leaving and what happened after. Sometimes I wonder if I would have found DR sooner if it would have worked out, but then I remember, OW isn't the first. She is the first PA that I know of, but not the first EA. There have been many of them so I am taking comfort in knowing I did all I could and did the best I knew to do at the time.

I am very different than teh person 2 years ago...actually as I have said before I am back to the person I was when I first met H or even shortly after. I am happy with who I am. I still have sad days, but they are very few. Having OW start to be around S right at the 2 year anniversary is hard, but I knew it would happen sometime and I just have to make sure I am there for S.

Still nothing from H which is really making me mad. Then I am also upset because in two weekends is H's weekend, but it is also my nephew's birthday party so I asked H if he could drop S off to go to it and then he could have him back if he wants. He said S could just stay with me (I was excited), but then since it is spring break, I asked H if he wants S extra like he claims he wants and maybe he could have S Thurday to Saturday so he gets the same amount of time because all of his weekends in April I will get S back on Saturday instead of Sunday because of how it is working out, and H said no I will just get him Friday. I don't understand. I love having S extra, but H wants credit for more time and says to his lawyer he wants more time, but DOES NOT TAKE IT. Well unless OW is out of town, then he wants H a lot and won't stop texting me. I just am tired of waiting and stuff so hopefully this will be over soon, but I say this every month and it never is.

4 more days until spring break and me having some fun with S.